BOOKS NOW OPEN!

Well its that time again. Books open up to the public. I have to admit, every time I do this, my anxiety is through the roof! I have never taken for granted the amazing career I have been able to have and it’s all because of everyone that has chosen to get work done by me. With out you all, I wouldn’t have had this career for the past 14 years! So thank you!!!

This time around I am basically going to pretty basic concepts. For years I have done concepts around emotions, human interactions, stories, etc. This past year has been really hard on my mentally. And so I decided going into this next year, I want to just create beautiful tattoos. So basically clients get to pick a theme, within that theme the mains subject matter and then create something beautiful.

Of course I am nervous as it’s even more simplified then in years past but I have really been pushing myself visually with these concepts and found my imagination going crazy! So my hope is that everyone finds these themes and simplified subject matter to be equally as intriguing as I do. I have also included guided concepts for clients that have some dope ideas. Because often, you all have really cool concepts that are really fun to dive into. So I set aside a few sessions for some cool concepts that will come through. I also have set up space for past clients wanting to add onto past tattoos we have done.

Some additional changes I made was to eliminate deposits and create a scheduling fee. 95% of my clients show up as they are traveling from all over so a deposit seemed unnecessary. However, establishing a fee for the design process has been working since I started doing that a few months ago. That way the design is covered with the time I spend on these pieces. Most don’t know this, but on average I am spending 2-3 hours per design before we even get to tattooing. That way in the rare chance the client doesn’t like the design (seriously has only happened a few times in the past few years) then at least my time spent on the design is honored.

I averaged out my hourly fee to $250 per hour and set up full day sessions at 8 hours. This is just slightly above the national average due to my style and uniqueness but I also include a full after care packag valued at over $100. So in the grand scheme of a cost for a tattoo, I am definitely on average with other well known artists around the country.

Im planning to open my books 4 times per year now instead of just two. This allows me to not have to book out 6-9 months at a time which makes planning trips actually really hard. So instead Illbe booking out myself 3-6 months at a time instead. So let the anxiety begin more times per year now 😂

In anywise, I am very much looking forward to what next year has to hold and all the new concepts that will come out. Along with the new design, I plan to get back into painting as well as start up my podcast, rightfully called, Colorful Pricks! So that’s about it for now. I look forward to the submission as the books open! Thanks again everyone for the continued love and support after all these years!

Its been a while…

Well shit. How time flies. That’s a true statement!

I can’t believe it’s been almost a year since I have been on here blogging and almost two years of being consistently blogging!. Blogging was definitely a great way for me to share more about the tattoos I do, my clients, life outside of tattooing and just having a place to download all the shit that goes on in my brain!

However, Covid hit, then life took a major dump on not only my business but also my personal life. More on that later! So to be honest, I kind of lost my way in terms of the positive path I was on post-ink master and coming out. Not that I lost my way in terms of my mental health, just the path of life took me down a journey of legal bull shit from both sides of my life! And neither of which was my fault or anything I did to land myself needing a lawyer.

I truly believe the universe said “wow Justin, you got your shit together. You‘ve been in some intense therapy learning to navigate your past traumas and learning to love yourself. So to test you and your mental health, here’s a double whammy of some shit fuckery…good luck!” LOL

So there you have it. Got a bit sidetracked dealing with that aspects of life. All while still running a business, building a new home and maintaining a positive outlook on my life.

So as we bury that shit fuckery that I will eventual divulge, I want to get back to what I was doing! Blogging. Plan for my podcast, Colorful Pricks. Pushing myself artistically. And continuing to live life to its fullest! So there ya have it. Hiatus over!

17 years. Happy Anniversary

Where to even begin...

I’ve been married to Shauna for 17 years. And today we celebrated our love. Many of you have been on this journey with us as we shared our challenges. But the one thing that never was challenged, was our love and dedication to each other.

I don’t know a lot of people in our shoes, I don’t know a lot of people that would have continued down the path we have found ourselves. Some even told us that divorce would be easier. But the love was there, and that made it worth it all.

I’ve been in love with Shauna since the day I met her. She’s my person. She gets me. I get her. We are soulmates. But just because you have all the social norms in place, doesn’t mean it turns out how we imagined. And now we have found ourselves challenging social norms. And all because of love. It has challenged many and even challenged both of us. But love continues to win.

So with the celebration of our marriage which was two has now found ourselves three. A triad. In a relationship we didn’t know much about but organically found ourselves deeply committed too. Our partner Brennan has come into our lives and added so much. So much love. So much laughter and so much joy.

This year of marriage I celebrate honesty. Courage. Love. Compassion. Being challenged. Being pushed. Owning our truths and encouraging others. We don’t all have to agree but you can’t deny love. I can’t predict what the future holds, but I can take it day by day. And with that I have to accept that changes will happen. And although we as humans are challenged by change, so much growth and understanding can come from it. But man is it uncomfortable!!!

Thank you Shauna, thank you Brennan and thank you for those that have embraced us and thank you for those that haven’t. We have learned so much from both sides of the spectrum.

Much love.

#loveisloveislove #celebratelove #poly #bi #marriagestory #beyou #loveyourself #lovewins

Family and friends.

Friendships

Today I woke up and realized that some people I have considered close enough to be family, have begun to separate themselves due to my life choices and changes within our marriage. In some aspects I’m broken but I’m others I’m disappointed. 

I’m broken because deep friendships should walk with you through it all. They don’t have to understand it but a true friend embraces you, they dint have to have the answers they don’t even have to talk. But they don’t discard you, they don’t invite you to get together. 

I’m disappointed because I don’t understand why my life affects others?  What I’m starting to understand is it’s their own issues within themselves. Their own insecurities and then it’s pushed upon me or us. When it has nothing to do with us. I’m disappointed that someone my wife has been there for has turned her back on my wife. I guess I’m not surprised. I’m not supposed these friendships have come with conditions. I think I’ve I’m honest with myself I’ve known this all along. Shauna and I often conformed to others needs including each other’s and as we walk this path together we no longer will conform. I’m not going to make you feel comfortable with who I am.  That’s not my roll in all of this. I use to make it my roll but now it’s time to let it go. 

I cherish friendships and connection. I struggle with those losses. It hurts. But I’m also learning who wants to be around and who can’t. And those that can’t I don’t want around anyway. 

Yep that stings…

The first rejection is the hardest. 

I think when you start to come to terms with yourself. Your sexuality and finding self love you also will eventually be hit by rejection. And it hurts. In fact it hurts so bad you start to question if you are making the best decision for yourself and everyone else involved. In our situation and moving forward with a non-monogamous relationship rejection and ridicule is going to happen. What I’ve learned is you have to find the strength inside to own your truth. N your love and not take on others fears and insecurities. Most fears others will have are often deep rooted issues within themselves. Maybe a desire to control their environments, past situations of friends or families or just very uneducated about other types of love. As the “outsiders” I often feel like a desire to educate and extend the olive branch. Rather then perpetuate the issue and make ourselves look more of what their perceptions is of our community we have a chance to show them otherwise. 

The idea that love has no boundaries is not for everyone and that’s ok. But what isn’t ok is for others to believe it is wrong based on religious beliefs, social condition, etc. humans have the right to love how ever they see dits them best and it is in our best interested to educate what that looks like. Some will listen others will not.  I always thought I’d be in a monogamous relationship. I also thought I’d never have to deal with my internal sexual identity but here we are living something that is very out of the norm. Even if you choose to approach the idea to others in respectful ways, their perception can be skewed. Many may not even be honest and say “sure it’s no problem” only to find out it actually wasn’t okay but for whoever reason, we as humans deny sharing our absolute truth because of fear of what they make cause. But if we ask for truth. If we ask for transparency and you can provide that honestly, however much it hurts or scares you, growth comes from those truths. And with growth comes understanding. 

Owning My Truth…

Im choosing to be free. Encourage others to live their truth. Much love…

Its been a while since I have posted on my blog. It’s Pride month and I had to take some time for life, working through some challenges and a new life direction. So for those of you that want to know, here you go…

For 39 years of my life I have lived to please others. Try to be that guy that was funny, successful and looking to be accepted and loved. I have also lived with a deep secret. I’m a bisexual married man.

I attempted suicide a year ago because I just couldn't understand the feelings I had and never wanted any of them. I seriously questioned whether or not I was gay, curious or bi. Society told me you can’t really be both so you must be gay. That never sat well with me as I genuinely loved women but I equally loved men. How could this be?!?  The guilt and shame I’ve hidden for so long finally caught up to me and decided it would be better to leave and let everyone move on with their lives. How could a bisexual married man live a life that was accepted by others?  I couldn’t do that to my wife or my children.

My attempted didn’t work but now I had to come clean with my hidden truth. Although my wife, Shauna, knew prior to get married about me questioning my sexuality, I tried hard to hide it and thought “it was a phase”. When I went to church I would pray God would take my desires away. I had hoped a pill would come out so I could take that and cure it away. I never wanted any of this. I didn’t want to be different. I didn’t want to be attracted to the same sex. I have a beautiful wife who I’ve been in love with for 21 years. As the pain of the secret increases you realize that either you come clean or allow it to take over. I almost allowed it to take over. 

So now I stand here as an openly bi man. Finding my way in this new, non-traditional identity. Declaring myself as someone that was no different prior to reading this but I know damn well that I will be judged, people will talk, question and ridicule me. They may think “how could you do this to your wife?”  I’m learning that I don’t have to explain myself but I’m here to tell you all I’m no one different. My wife excepts me as I am and continues to walk this path with me. If she wanted to leave, she would. But our love for each other is endless. Our traditions have changed, who knows what can happen moving forward but one thing remains is our deep love each other and love doesn’t have to be confined. It can flourish. I’m making the change to love me for exactly who I am. I’m here to make a stand and say I’m here, I’m an ally to all you men and woman that are in the same place. Openly or hidden, I hear you. I’m there with you and this life is too damn short to hide from our truth.  But I’m scared. Humans can be very hurtful. But we give too much to others. So my goal is to care less about the external and devote to my internal needs.  

You’ve all seen me post about “Much Love” and “Love is Love” and now it’s time for me to be open about what that truly means. 

I’m terrified. I’m scared. I’m nervous about what my future holds based on our societal expectations. I’m blessed with my family and friends that I’ve come out to over the last year. They have shown me that regardless of who I am they love me for exactly who I am.  They believe in the love Shauna and I share together. 

Being apart of the LGBTQ community isn’t trendy. It isn’t something to take lightly. It’s a developed group of people that don’t fit what society expects and because of that more and more are feeling safe to come forward to own their truth. Or to join as an ally and realize that humans are humans. And love is love. It doesn’t have to look like what we have been told passed down by generations. You get to live your life as you see works for you. And that is a beautiful thing. 

You may choose to reach out and ask questions. I will not tolerate hate or disrespect towards myself or my family. You don’t  like what you know about my truth, then remove me from your feeds. Take your business elsewhere and live your life based on your beliefs but I ask you do not place that upon myself or my family. This has been the hardest thing I have ever gone through and your hate is not welcome. 

To those that continue to see me as the same guy that loves all humans, works hard and dedicated to my craft, a loyal friend and as someone who wants the best in others, thank you for your love and support. I’m the same ole me. Just living my truth. Choosing to be free. 

Inspirational Humans

Inspiration comes in many forms and in many ways to artists. I know for me personally, when I started really embracing the art world and painting in college, my inspiration was drawn from social concepts to personal stories of myself. Over the years, I’ve relied heavily on my own personal demons and strengths, but as my career in tattooing has grown, and I tend to paint less, my inspiration comes from the human connection.

It seems obvious that my inspiration for my designs come from my clients. That’s a given. But for me it has become more then just artistic inspiration. But has inspired me to see us as all very much equal. We all bleed the same. We all arrived here in the same way. The human connection is a beautiful thing.

I have heard so many stories from my clients that I am consistently humbled by the human story. I have heard stories of triumph and overcoming some insane challenges. From terminal diagnosis to coming to terms with oneself. I’ve heard stories of pure tragedy, sometimes stories I feel like I wouldn’t have been strong enough to survive to unbelievable journeys that I can only dream of doing someday!! And tattoos do not always have to mean something. They can purely be an extension of beauty on our bodies and that in itself is inspirational.

I have never taken for granted the amount of amazing human beings that have sat with me for hours on end, sharing their lives, their inspirations for this piece of work and then trusting me to create a vision I see for them.

When I ask for full artistic creation this isn’t about me doing what I want, it’s taking what I’ve been shared with from my client and translating it into something from my mind. Meaning my specific style guides the design based of the clients information. I have set a pretty fail proof regiment, asking for images of inspiration, pieces I’ve done that have inspired the client to seek a tattoo from me, and their story, as much or as little as they want to share. Then taking the time to talk to each of my clients to gain an even deeper perspective of them and their direction for the piece of work.

So as you can see, my inspiration comes from you. I am in constant awe of what is brought to me and then getting the privilege to design these stories, memories, hardships and triumphs.

So thank you, for being inspirational humans!!

much love.

What a Summer....

It has been a while since I posted on here. It’s been a really difficult summer if I am being honest. So much has gone on but I feel like I am in a really good place right now because of it. Not sure how much I want to share at this point, but on a personal level is where things where very challenging.

Life is a very interesting journey. One that has it’s ups and downs. It's also one that is truly an epic journey that we all get to be apart of in some way or another. I think what I find most interesting is the ability for people to create stories about situations that at the very core might have some truth, but the extended versions are so far from the truth that it’s ridiculous.

This summer I took sometime to find me. After a severe bout of depression which led me to a suicide attempt back in March, feeling more lost then I ever have, I needed to do some serious self internal healing. I needed some space. I needed time. Therapy was so important during this time for me.

After many months of some of the most intense and trying times both emotionally and physically, I am starting to find my authentic self, and Im proud to say I am on a path that works for me. Because of this, I am truly grateful to have some of the best support systems. My wife, is by far, one of the most amazing humans on this planet. She and I have been through the ringer these past 6 months and her dedication to me and understanding the challenges I have faced, is still willing to walk with me on this path is truly a blessing. Transparency is key! We are coming up on our 16th year of marriage and we have never felt closer to each other because of what we have gone through together then we do right now.

Our society is so based on traditions that if something goes outside of these traditions or the “norm” then immediately it is seen as bad or not “normal”. Why?? Why have we set such perimeters of what is ok and what is not, that we have stifled ourselves as humans? Because of religion? Because of social norms? We as humans, are the most complex thinkers this world has ever seen, and yet, we restrict our thoughts and actions to be so linear because “society says so”. But here is what I think, you all reading this probably think like I do. You just don’t allow yourselves to go there. Fear of judgement. Fear or rejection. Whatever it may be, it’s easier to turn an eye and pass judgement on the others that are not fitting “social norms”. I say fuck that. Be you. Be authentic. Live authentically. Anyone that challenges that, they can fuck off!

It feels good to say that! I have learned that a lot of the outside chatter beyond my circle of family and friends is nothing more than noise. And often loud, obnoxious noise that needs no attention other than to be turned off. So Im working on “turning off the noise”. Because this summer taught me a lot about who Justin Nordine is, as a man, as a husband, as a father, Im more then the tattoo artist I am known for, as a human being that doesn’t necessarily “fit” in what society wants me to be And that’s ok. And for those that don’t like that, thats ok too.

My therapist asked me in last weeks session, “what do you want out of all of this Justin?” I said “I want to fall in love with me”

I encourage you all to fall in love with yourselves too.

much love.

Yep. I've been eliminated...#notrauma

And there it is. Done. Finished. Over. Bye Felicia!!! Are you as shocked as I was?!?

#NOTRAUMA

Ive been wondering what this day would feel like when the world saw out of the competition. Not only out, but this early. I had high hopes that I was going to do well. I had a plan going into the show, but after the first episode, my plan was out the window.

This is a type of show that isn’t really about strategy. It’s about adaptability and not necessarily the art. And that comes from deep within yourself. Unfortunately I sucked at being adaptable. I learned a lot going and doing something like this. I learned I place WAY too much substance on others view of me and my work. I think that is a valuable lesson to take away from this experience.

As an artist, we either specialize or are known for “something”. You do that something well and it becomes your identity. We are praised from it, we are sought after for what we do and almost placed on a pedal stool of greatness. So then you go on Ink Master, and your work is looked at under a microscope to find ALL flaws. Add the pressure of filming, etc and then you are completely ripped apart and then do it all again. If you aren’t prepared or not able to adapt, you crumble. I crumbled. I can openly and honestly admit that.

The coaches said time and time again, “don’t let it get in your head”, I often wonder if I was able to calm my mind, would I still be apart of the show?

The “trauma” wasn’t what got me eliminated. It was myself and the inability to adapt to my surroundings. Thats the truth. I will stand by this piece and saw there was no trauma. My coach said it, she saw it up close and personal. Cam will always have been, in my opinion, one of the worst of the day and did not meet the challenge. He knows it. But Cam played the game very well. Poker face baby! I however, did not.

Many have questioned if Chris Núñez had it out for me? I can’t honestly answer that as my only interaction with him and the other judges were in the critic and elimination room. I do feel like he made it very clear he was not a fan of my style and that’s his right. However, I think personal likes and dislikes should void any type of criticism and focus on what was asked of the design, elements and execution not personal tastes. It was hard to hear all three say they would wear mine of the other two but the whole “trauma” aspect was ended up sending me home. Didn’t make sense to me.

I think if I was ever asked to come back, I would go in a much different player. I would be confident in my work, take the criticism the judges gave me with a grain of salt, pick myself up and kill it again the next day. I just unfortunately got in my head and it destroyed me. So much is not shown, this environment is so unbelievably difficult that if you aren’t careful, it’ll eat you alive.

I can not thank you all enough for the love and support. It’s never easy to put yourself out there and what I have learned, Twitter houses a lot of keyboard warriors!! I am and will always be proud of who I am as an artist and the career I have been able to create. I applaud those that are a master of many, but for now, I will be a master of one. Best of luck to all the others on the show and Ill be back for the finale!

Who knows, maybe Ill get back on someday and redeem myself a bit. But if not, my suggestion to you all, take opportunities as they come, don’t let them define you, but allow it to grow your character.

Much love.

Don't give your depression to something it's not...

I have had many ask if “Ink Master” led me to my suicide attempt due to what people hear about filming, living conditions, the backlash online, etc. Let me be very clear…ABSOLUTELY NOT!

My suicide attempt was a gathering of so much bullshit that I didn’t want to face, it led me down a pretty dark path. But filming Ink Master had nothing to do with any of that. I can’t say much about filming Ink Master earlier this year due to legal BS. But what I can say is yes, it fucked with my anxiety. So intensely that you start to see it hit me by episode 3. Unfortunately with editing, we don’t see the lashing Chris Nunez gave me, which led me to say during the mens decision to put someone at the bottom, me saying “I think mine was the worst, I should go to the bottom”. I was breaking under the environment I willingly chose to be apart of, I struggled to set aside the harsh critiques, trying to do what I love in environment that did not lend itself well to me and add on sleep issues, you get someone who does’t handle that atmosphere well. Clearly some of the other cast mates did just fine or better yet, were able to hide how they were feeling. I was not. And the beauty of editing shows me breaking but with no clear reason why at this point.

But for me, and I will speak for no one else, this wasn’t an easy place for me to be, because of how I think and act.. It’s one fo things you learn to just either love or hate about yourself. Im working on that “loving it” part.

Obviously I won’t be able for everyone to read this but I wanted to make sure there was a statement somewhere and a bit of a discussion about Ink Master and it having nothing to do with my attempt. I won’t give my depression to anyone thing or anyone person. It’s an accumulation of life and not dealing with it in a healthy light. Ink Master and the powers be (judges, producers, cast mates, etc) don’t have that much validity in my day to day life. They nor no one else led me to my attempt. I did that. Period

Much love

A new chapter...

So if you have been following along with my blog over the past few months, many of you know how transparent I have been about this year. Its been one of the hardest years of my life. Some things I have not shared and others I have been very open about. I have found this blog to be a very healing tool for me, I thought it would be good to open up a bit more.

Today I decided to add the semicolon to my hand. I have been thinking about this for a while now because of its meaning. Fairly cliche, it holds a significant meaning for those of use that have experienced those that have attempted suicide, fallen to suicide, or fallen victim to suicide. As many fo you know, I attempted suicide on March 22nd, 2019. Thankful, I am still here. Learning to cope. Learning to deal with the challenges I am facing, but most of all, learning to love myself.

A therapist I am seeing also has the semicolon on their arm and it just hit me. I need to add this to my body. So I see it everyday. As a reminder my story is not over, although challenging and difficult, I am worth it to allow my story to still be written in my book of life.

So I sat down today, quickly drew out a semicolon and permanently added this to my body. A forever reminder to keep telling my story and not allowing myself to end it prematurely. I love the placement. I see it at all times. Unless of course when I have a glove on during a tattoo session. But it’s there. A reminder.

My journey is not over. My book has so much more to add. New chapters. A new glossary of definitions, I have so much more to do.

I know right now, you see me on Inkmaster, well, not that I have been on much as of lately, but you are seeing me. My true authentic self. Not the drama. Not the bullshit. But a man of reason and when I have something to say, I mean it. But I am happy because I haven’t found myself consumed by what is being shown. It isn’t defining who I am. Those fo you that have sat in my chair, know me as a friend, you see me and I have to remember that. My dad reminded me today that I have a wonderful circle of people that care and that I am not alone. Being your authentic self is so important and I am just now starting to understand that. Living a life that isn’t authentic, and being what you think the world expects you to be, will only make you feel empty. I don’t want that for any of you. I also don’t want that for myself.

So as I continue this journey of authenticity and permanently reminding myself that my story is not finished. There is no “period” to end my book. Only a semicolon, indicating a pause, typically between two main clauses, that is more pronounced, making a statement that I still have more to do here in this crazy thing called life.

Much love.

And so it begins...

And so it begins. This little show called Ink Master that I kept to myself for the first few months fo the first part of the year is about to start. I have a mix of feelings. One of them NOT being nervous. Which I figured I was going to be scared shitless when this finally aired. But I have to say, I feel I was exactly who I am in real life as how I was on the show.

It took me a long time to make the decision to actually go on and participate. After several calls for the past few seasons I decided to give it a shot. While I can’t share much about behind the scenes I can tell you it was something I didn’t expect. Even though I went in with a pretty good idea of what to expect. Given I know someone that has been on the show before. But nothing prepares you for this kind of “reality”.

The first 12 minutes of the episode have been shown and I have to say, it is very strange watching yourself. I experienced this first hand and so my. memories are different then what you all will see on screen. From the cold outdoors takes, to the many screams of “WE ARE ON ICE PEOPLE” (which basically means don’t talk), meeting the judges for the first time, making facials so they have plenty to use during the episodes, to finding myself tattooing in a very unfamiliar environment, timed and then exposed for all to see. Add on doing this with people I have never met, living in a place I have never been and being recorded 12-16 hours a day. It’s a lot to put into a 60 minute episode.

So as you all watch, enjoy it. Im glad I did it and experienced something most will never get too. Add the excitement of my face bing up in Time Square. Holy Shit! But also remember, this is a tv show to entertain. Its’ not real life. But a strange reality that exists only on your screen. Each one of these artists are amazingly talented and put their lives on hold to do this. Either for social gain, to push themselves as artist or because it sounded like fun, they did something extremely difficult. I am truly grateful for the experience and can’t wait for you all to go on this journey with me. However long it may or may not last. You’ll have to tune in each week to see what happens!

I am hoping each night after the episode Ill do a live Q & A, or a blog roasting the episode. Either way, Im looking to engage with you all, answer question or just give you the truth of “reality tv” as it is shown. Thank you for the love and encouragement.

Much love.

A Devastating Loss...

I’ve been working with Wendy, my client now since last year and the first piece we started, the bird, all was well.  We hadn’t quit moved into our new studio yet and she got one of my favorite pieces on her forearm.

Then I got the message while I was away filming and one that you don’t ever want to hear. Her husband passed away suddenly from a car accident in January.  He was on his way to get more work done on his tattoo in Salt Lake. Wendy’s life changed instantly for her and her young son.

Fast forward a few months later and our first project has now turned into healing projects. Spirit animals of herself, her husband and their son. We have one more spirit animal to go.

Life is precious and we are never guaranteed another day. My heartbreaks for Wendy and her son. I’m honored to be a small part of her healing. Another reason why I love what I get to do. Connect on deeper levels Andes art as a form of healing and honor.

Much love.

@therawcanvas  @peakneedles @recoveryaftercare @fkirons

@painfulpleasures @electrumstencilprimer @afterinked @radiantcolorsink @radiantinklab @saniderm  #synthnouveau #justinnordinetattoos  #wctattoos #radiantcolorsink #radiantcolorscrew

Sneak Peek...How Are you feeling about the theme...?

So here it is…the sneak peek of the season premier of Ink Master: Battle of the Sexes.

And you know what…..? Had I known the theme for this year, I wouldn’t have signed on. Thats the honest truth. Now, since I was there and had already signed a contract, I don’t really have a choice. But I made a decision, this wasn’t about sexes for me. As you all saw in “meet the artists” I specifically referenced my daughter and that it didn’t matter to me if I am battle a male or female. We are artists and that’s how I look at this whole thing.

I was shocked when we found out it was battle of the sexes. It’s 2019 for God sakes! But I have to agree that we are seeing more and more women in the industry doing some absolutely amazing work and not necessarily getting the credit they deserve for it. I have two female tattoo artists in my studio and they work their asses off to get the recognition they deserve. Without the tits and ass hanging out. Their work speaks from themselves and that is what matters. I am happy to see an equal amount of guys and gals on the show this time around. Typically it’s just a handful of women. Just not sure why it took so long for there to be equal amounts of gender and then let the artist battle it out. But here we are…

The idea of guys vs girls was only a matter of time. It creates controversy, gets discussions going and also puts the two against each other. For me, ill say it again. Sex doesn’t matter. All are capable of greatness. My daughter for instance, I have always told her she can be and do whatever she wants. She is a strong young woman and Id be damned to go on some show and treat anyone differently because of who they are and what they stand for. I don’t do it in my own home, and you for sure won’t see me doing it on national television.

My core values are strong and I love all. Period. So I encourage you all to watch, be open about what you see and hear, but also remember this is a tv show. Not necessarily the real world.

I would love to hear your feedback about what you have seen and your feelings about this season theme. Which artists are you already pissed at, which artists do you feel are putting on a show and which artists are you rooting for? Leave your comments below! As episodes come out, Ill be adding my two cents, some good, some bad but always transparent and real. SO make sure and come back and join me in discussion as we jump into season 12 of Ink Master.

Much love.

One Trick Pony

Well it’s official. My work is finally up on Inkmaster for all to see.  I have actually been dreading this day. I tend to be a very pessimistic person when it comes to myself. Normally I’m very optimistic of others but for me, always thinking the worst.  

Im happy to say that the majority of the comments I received were pretty nice!  I was pleasantly surprised as I know the internet can be a sea of darkness and full of keyboard warriors!   The one comment that seem to come up was “his stuff is nice but he’s a one trick pony”

I found that really interesting and yet, not surprising. Inkmaster is a show about someone being a master of many styles and not a master of one. So a guy like me, with a very distinctive style, on a show that is looking for diversity. It’s no wonder this title kept being brought up.   

I do pride myself in having a distinctive style. It has allowed me to have an absolutely amazing career, one that I never thought was possible.   So why then would I go on a show like Inkmaster?

That is a really good question. To be honest, my only response to that is I wanted a platform to show a unique side of the industry and to be pushed artistically.  But it’s true, this show is looking for a master of many. I wanted to be pushed out of my comfort zone and challenged to do other styles.  I guess you’ll have to tune in a see how I did!!

Regardless, take away the “watercolor” look and you’ll see solid foundations of tattooing. Strong lines, solid black, packed in color, etc. but it’s interesting because many only see what is on the surface. Not what it takes and what foundations it needs to be able to be applied correctly. 

So I’ll take the title of One Trick Pony. I have many tricks, but I’m proud of my style. It’s mine. It developed out of pure experimentation. I like being the odd one out. Thank you all for the continued love and support.  This was a crazy ride for sure!  And it’s just the beginning...

much love.  

I am everything they hate about the industry....

It’s true. I embody much of what the industry hates about the direction that tattooing has gone. For the past 10 years, I have fought my way to do the style I had wanted, to be my own artist, do my own thing and move in my own direction. My style, poorly called “watercolor” was once said to be a “trendy style that will fade” has become a widely sought out style that has taken on many forms. If done correctly, it will hold and is often sought out by many that are looking for a tattoo but beyond the traditional norms of tattoo designs..

I never set out to be different or do anything that would get me recognition. I sought out the ability to design and create unique ideas. Use my art as a global language. I happen to get that opportunity in the form of tattoos. Tattooing has been around for a very, very long time. It has seen its rise and fall of popularity, but nothing like it has within the past 10-15 years. We are now seeing just about everyone getting a tattoo and wearing them proudly. It has moved from an underground culture to a modern phenomenon. From reality tv, to tattoo shops looking more and more like high end salons. I think when you present something different to a culture that doesn’t like change, it challenges them to the core. And not taking anything away from them, but change can be hard to accept at times.

I have had some people ask, “Why did you do Ink Master? You already have a great following” and my response has been is that I went on Ink Master to showcase the other side of tattooing. Us nerdy art kids that don’t really fit the mold of traditional tattooing groups, who may have gone to art school, who were president of the school art club (hint hint),and have a different view of the body and tattoos. I took a chance to use that as a way to share more objective ideas for the watching public. Not necessarily what has been typical. In addition, I wanted a platform to discuss openly about mental health as well as be put in challenging situations that ultimately will help me grow as an artist. I wanted to share the joy I have found in this industry and for those of us that don’t “fit” what is typically seen.

So when I say, “I am everything they hate about the industry”, it’s true. Its not a bad thing! In fact, I think over the years, especially the beginning of my career, it was something that kept me going, something to prove to myself. As someone who chooses not to conform, challenge the norm and paved my own path as an artist, I say “fuck it” be the ones they hate. Challenge them. Be able to hold your own and do it because you love it. Not for the fame. Not for the fortune or the followers and groupies. Do it because you want to speak to the world through your passion, because it’s you at the very core. It’s ok for them to hate you, you’re better because you are different. And being different makes the world a much more interesting place.

Much Love.

Home

My client came to me with a design she wanted to represent where she grew up. Here in Gran Junction, Co.  If you are from Grand Junction, you know about the infamous Independence Rock and all the sage that grows around the valley.  

Ive also grew up here in the valley. Born and raised. Left for about 5 years and lived in the Denver area. Moved back and opened up the tattoo studio. The great thing about this town is how beautiful it is, mountains surrounding you, hiking trails, biking, camping, skiing within less then an hour away. It really is a beautiful place to live. The downside...everyone knows you.  

Not that I don’t mind connecting with old classmates and friends, but you run into just about everyone, everyone seems to “know” you or at least thinks they do.  

So at times I’ve found myself hibernating in my house rather then being Mr. Social that I use to be in college and early on in my tattooing profession.  

I cant imagine not living in Colorado but I do have a huge desire to see more of the world. So I’m not sure Grand Junction will be my forever home, but for now, I’ll take it!

If you could pick anywhere in the world to call home, where would that be? 

Much Love

@therawcanvas  @peakneedles @recoveryaftercare @fkirons

@painfulpleasures @electrumstencilprimer @afterinked @radiantcolorsink @radiantinklab @saniderm  #synthnouveau #justinnordinetattoos  #wctattoos #radiantcolorsink #radiantcolorscrew

Do you fit into your box?

Part of the joy I get in being a tattoo artist is getting to know my clients on a deeper level. I’m an empath, I’m sensitive and drawn to the emotions of others. Either to fix, try to heal or just to listen, it’s something I cherish but also have learned to be cautious.   

My client came to me for a design that represented her time in Africa. Part of the Peace Corps, she selflessly spent two years working in a village. No running water, no electricity and no real source of communication or really knowing anyone and her connection with the LGBTQ community, she wanted a design that shared those stories and a part of who she is and still learning about herself.

During the session, we got into some great,  conversations that reminded me again, we are so alike in this world. Whether our stories line up, or cross, we all share tragedy, triumphs on this journey called life.  None of us “fit” the box we all seem to try and fit in or what others expect us to fit into. Either for the sake of social norms or our own insecurities most of the time our “box” doesn’t fit! 

I was reminded by my client that life is not easy. It’s not black and white. And that the human connection is much deeper then what is expected to be the norm. To follow your own path. Not what has been laid out in front of you. And to love yourself. However challenging that might be, to love yourself is the greatest love we all seem to be passing by...

Much love.  

 @therawcanvas  @peakneedles @recoveryaftercare @fkirons @painfulpleasures @electrumstencilprimer @afterinked @radiantcolorsink @radiantinklab @saniderm  #synthnouveau #justinnordinetattoos  #wctattoos #radiantcolorsink #radiantcolorscrew

Spirit Animal

In certain spiritual traditions or cultures, spirit animal refers to a spirit which helps guide or protect a person on a journey and whose characteristics that person shares or embodies.  

For myself, I’ve always been drawn to the polar bear. To me a symbol of strength and family. From afar super cute but piss him off and he will tear you apart. 

The polar-bear spirit animal is a powerful spirit guide. It's not surprising because the polar-bear symbolism represents strength and endurance, as well as acceptance and surrender. Just like the bear spirit animal, the polar-bear meaning is telling you that you should surrender to where you are in your life.

So what is your spirit animal?  Do you think it reflects you?

much love

Why would you go on that show?

This is a nice introduction to the cast and what to expect from this seasons, Ink Master: Battle of the Sexes.

I knew going on many might ask “Why would you go on that show?” To be honest, in my earlier career I thought it would be a cool thing to do, great way to get your name out there. However, as my career grew without the need for TV or other things, I decided it wasn’t for me. Then came the calls, after several seasons of saying no, I finally decided why not!

The biggest reason I did it was because I wanted to share my love of the art and what this industry has done for me. I have been through it all in the 10 years I have been in tattooing. The good, the bad and the absolute worst. And I still I love what I do, I want to share that with the world.

I also wanted a platform to be open about mental health, my struggles in hopes to be transparent and inspire others, share the positive aspects of the industry, a different side to tattooing, a more fine art approach, I wanted to show my kids you can do anything you set your mind to, face the fears of the unknown and I was also excited for the opportunity to be challenged and pushed outside of my comfort zone.

For me this wasn’t about gaining more followers, or proving I am a good tattoo artist. I know I am and Im proud of my style and direction. I wanted to be challenged, I believe when we are put in uncomfortable situations you experience growth. Just like working out, we workout to stay strong and build muscle, so by putting myself in uncomfortable situations, which this experience did, I have been able to grow, I learned a lot and wouldn’t change it.

But don’t believe its about fame. Or fortune. Its about being successful and that doesn’t always mean doing that in the traditional sense. If opportunities are presented to you, I would hate to regret taking them and always wonder….what if I had….

Much love.